11:00 pm

Bedtime is full of anxiety for me. Im not sure why. I have to start somewhere if I want to improve my life. I don’t want to give up. I have to learn to give up my perfectionist mind set. I am taking baby steps now. Changing my habits one step at a time. Small, tiny, itty bitty baby steps. New habits are formed by repeating the same behaviors or actions for around two weeks. My habits fall in the unhealthy/bad category. I always heard you can’t teach an old dog new tricks. I’ll be the judge of that. This is day two of writing when I get my reminder. Simply write. No title, no premise, just me and my feelings and thoughts. I have a drug problem but I can’t change everything at once. If I get a few simple but good habits back in my daily routine I know it will give me small doses of encouragement. That will lead to gaining momentum. The more momentum I get, t will run with it. I know I can do this if I stick with baby steps.

Goodnight Diary